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Adam Parrish

I'm not calling you a ghost, just stop haunting me
and I love you so much, I'm gonna let you kill me
There's a ghost in my lungs and it sighs in my sleep
Wraps itself around my tongue as it softly speaks
Then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To fall, to fall, to fall at your feet

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[But there's a hard question and he inhales deeply as he thinks about that.] ...I would have, yeah. There are obviously thinks I could do that you couldn't and I made you a deal. I would have made sure you lived as long as possible. [He wrinkles his nose in a joking manner.] Real charming, Romeo. But yeah, I heard. People were really...not thinking that you had your own motives at hand, were they?
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There's a moment where he thinks about the wording. As long as possible... He wonders if, if it came down to it, Luke would have let him be killed. But that's not really something to think about, he guesses. ] No. [ And that clearly annoys him. ] They thought it was only for you. Not even Lara. Just because we'd been dating like... like other relationships don't matter. I'm just happy I don't have to be around them anymore.
I guess like this, we can have normal lives. [ A pause. ] I think this is better than anything I could have had while alive.
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Most of them aren't very smart and can't think beyond what other people tell them to think from what I noticed. The others will continue on without me. [He doesn't seem to care.] I can't believe they didn't learn their lesson from last week considering how many people admitted Lara's death was a mistake. They're on their own now. I can't say I mind.
But I think...maybe the same can be said for me? I don't know, I'm still trying to figure out everything I know now. But being here. [He pauses.] Lara'll wanna see you. But that can wait a little while, right? There's no curfew in this place.
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But he also doubts they'll understand that. They'll demonize him. ] You don't want to go inside, so I guess we're staying here. [ Because it's too soon to leave Luke again. ] ... Do you think she's mad at me? For killing Franziska?
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Why would Lara be mad at you for that? We, uh, were both kind of celebrating? Is that bad?
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No, I... I'm glad. I had my reasons, but it was mostly for what she did to you two. [ He's still smiling. ] I really... I missed this. Even before all of this, everything kind of sucked. So when we woke up at the complex, I didn't think it was so bad. At least I got a break and even... while the killings happened, I had you.
So when you and Lara were gone, it was just the same as before. I thought I was meant to have my life be like that.
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What I said is still true. I don't know many people who understand me the way you do which is something I've never really been able to figure out. Without having to worry about killings here, I guess this whole place is a huge break until they figure things out out there. Since you can change your future from here on out...what is it that you think you want to do with your life now?
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He doesn't think there's another Luke. ] I... don't know. [ That's a distressing question. He looks off at the neighborhood. It's small. ] I've always been working to get somewhere and I guess I never really thought about where I wanted to get. Just... away. Now I'm away for good.
What exactly are we supposed to do here? Just live? No money or school or work... [ As horrible as his life had been because of all those things, he's not sure he wants them gone completely. ] I don't know what it's like to have free time.
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Didn't you read my letter, Adam? Creation. That's the whole point...a new you and me was what I was talking about originally, I'll admit, but...in this place I think we can create a town to be whatever we want it to be. What do you know about computers? [He waves a hand.] I haven't quite figured it all out yet, but I think there's a chance we can build more the more people show up here. Almost like an exchange of energy but not as creepy.
...by the way I told you Judy wasn't a real physical person.
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He shakes his head because he knows nothing about computers, certainly not enough to figure anything out. Then he elbows Luke and leaves his arm pressed against Luke's side. ] Yeah, well, too bad you didn't tell me you had experience with her and, what, were her boss? And I thought boyfriends were supposed to tell each other everything.
[ A huff. ] Can we build a library? I think I'll go stir-crazy if I don't have something to do.
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A library is an idea though.] ...I guess we could. I bet Lara would like that, too. It's worth asking. Why a library though instead of something else?
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[ There might be a hint of jealousy there. He shrugs. ] There are plenty of things to do in a library. What would you want? I don't see anything interesting around here.
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[He thinks about it though. Sure, okay, there's plenty that can be done in a library.] ...a movie theatre or something. I haven't seen a movie in forever.
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I could go for a few movies. And some popcorn with butter... [ Then he looks off like he's imagining something. ] A restaurant too? Like a diner. I got so tired of the cafeteria food.
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[But the idea of something normal kind of sounds good to him.] A diner's not a bad idea either. I know food is food but having somewhere to go could be worth it. Who would run it though? Case you haven't noticed, town's a little empty.
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Who's going to run the movie theater? [ He finally chuckles. ] I wouldn't mind a job but I think I'd prefer to work at the library.
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[He can't help but grin.] Somehow I always knew you were kind of a nerd. I've never worked a real job so don't look at me. Maybe we can ask Judy for some robot kits and build AIs to run everything. It might be worth something.
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He brings his knees up and curls in a bit, closed off and upset. The mention of robots, though, gets a glance. ] We can do stuff like that in here?
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...after I killed Lara, I didn't. So that's an answer, I guess. I'd say "that's noble" but are you so sure...[He shakes his head. Never mind. It doesn't matter. He takes a deep breath and even if Adam isn't looking at him he scoots in closer and knocks his head lightly into Adam's. Come on. Don't sulk.] I haven't entirely figured out what we can and can't do here, but we're gonna be here for a while. If I'm in charge of my fate here, why not fill it with things I want?
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Am I so sure what? [ It does matter. He freezes when Luke's head knocks against his own, then turns his head to look at him. He had to be close to Luke when they were both still alive so it doesn't feel that weird. ] ... I guess otherwise we're going to get bored. Let's do everything we've ever wanted, then.
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[Fuck 'em. That's basically what it comes down to. Adam looks at him though and Luke gives a lopsided smile, uncertain but elated all the same.] I don't do well with being bored, you know? Not really wired for that...if you want a library and I want a movie theatre, we should see what Lara wants, too. Start thinking of everything possible. I've wanted a lot of things in my life...it'd be kind of cool to get at least half of them.
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[ He shrugs. He thinks he did something good, both by killing Franziska and showing them how stupid they were about to be but he doesn't expect praise for it. When Luke smiles, Adam lets out a breath and seems to calm down. There's nothing more that he can do. He's dead. ] Think I could turn my house into a mansion? [ It's already bigger than he needs but why not? ] And a nice car and somewhere to drive it to.
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[Adam calming down helps, too, but he snorts in amusement.] You could if you wanted I guess, but where would you even want to go in a car? I don't think we can leave the town.
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[ He's not moving away from Luke even though he supposes there is no need for them to be close anymore. It's easier to see his expressions like this. ] It's not about going somewhere. It's about driving. [ There's a pause and he smiles. ] Have you ever driven anywhere or do you generally just fly?
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[Maybe there's no need for them to be like this, but knowing the things he knows now...he can't say he minds too much either. It's also just nice having someone around while he's still confused about...well, everything. He seems to consider how to really answer that question though.] The flying's for special occasions. And I've never really had a huge need to drive anywhere. Something that special about it?
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