[In a way, Luke knows he's biased. Percy had a very loving mother and a father that spoke to him on a few occasions, even helped him sometimes. Annabeth was claimed by Athena at birth and eventually went to live with her father for a while. There were other demigods who had somewhat better circumstances...and Luke was horribly, horribly jealous of a lot of them. Percy in particular. Percy who was the prize of the Olympians, and Luke knew this. Luke knew that if the Olympians would listen to anyone it would be Percy Jackson. It was the reason he had made Percy promise him his last dying wish. It was the reason Percy confused him with a mixture of jealousy and fear and other strange emotions he couldn't hash through sometimes.
So. He doesn't entirely know why he's telling Adam specifically other than he thinks Adam will understand and he knows Adam needs to hear certain words from him. He doesn't seem to mind the idle touch even if he's sliding his gaze back to Adam carefully.]
That's an incredibly big thing to dangle in front of somebody. [And yet it sounds nice all the same. The real trouble with being alive for ten more weeks and on the other side of the end of his life is that there's too much time to think. He remembers how hard his life was from the time he was a child and how no one bothered to help him. He's not sure what sort of life he deserved. He had friends. The girls had cared about him, but in a way it still left a bit of a gap.
He also isn't sure how to answer that question.] When I was really, really young maybe I felt like it might have been something I did. Like I wasn't praying hard enough or something. Later I just assumed it was his own fault despite what he said to me. Same with her. Annabeth figured out at the last minute that my mom knew I was the hero of the prophecy when I was born. Annabeth tried really, really hard to prove that things weren't my fault. [There's a wobbly grin though like he's unsure what to think.] But I tried to explain to her and Thalia both why I was doing this and how this was repayment for our families abandoning us and both of them never looked at me the same again. Annabeth called me a monster and insulted my intelligence. [That was a real bad time.]
...but nobody really proved me wrong entirely, no. [Which is true. It's knowledge Luke would never have. He would never know that his dad actually cared nor would he ever know all of the things Percy Jackson knew. Or maybe he was just too far gone to listen to reason but there's no sense in admitting that either.] In the end, the only person who saved me was myself. [...and Annabeth.]
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So. He doesn't entirely know why he's telling Adam specifically other than he thinks Adam will understand and he knows Adam needs to hear certain words from him. He doesn't seem to mind the idle touch even if he's sliding his gaze back to Adam carefully.]
That's an incredibly big thing to dangle in front of somebody. [And yet it sounds nice all the same. The real trouble with being alive for ten more weeks and on the other side of the end of his life is that there's too much time to think. He remembers how hard his life was from the time he was a child and how no one bothered to help him. He's not sure what sort of life he deserved. He had friends. The girls had cared about him, but in a way it still left a bit of a gap.
He also isn't sure how to answer that question.] When I was really, really young maybe I felt like it might have been something I did. Like I wasn't praying hard enough or something. Later I just assumed it was his own fault despite what he said to me. Same with her. Annabeth figured out at the last minute that my mom knew I was the hero of the prophecy when I was born. Annabeth tried really, really hard to prove that things weren't my fault. [There's a wobbly grin though like he's unsure what to think.] But I tried to explain to her and Thalia both why I was doing this and how this was repayment for our families abandoning us and both of them never looked at me the same again. Annabeth called me a monster and insulted my intelligence. [That was a real bad time.]
...but nobody really proved me wrong entirely, no. [Which is true. It's knowledge Luke would never have. He would never know that his dad actually cared nor would he ever know all of the things Percy Jackson knew. Or maybe he was just too far gone to listen to reason but there's no sense in admitting that either.] In the end, the only person who saved me was myself. [...and Annabeth.]