[ That's why he says it at all, because Luke understands. There are a lot of things he never tells his friends solely because they can't understand, and that always becomes especially lonely. For the first time, he's met someone who does understand, who understands everything and that's exactly why can't let him go. This is a special thing, something rare and precious. ]

You can't always keep picking up the pieces yourself. [ Which is to say, yes. It's hard for him to admit. He's always had to pick up his own pieces and keep going and for a long time he thought he would break for good. Which isn't the same as giving up. Adam Parrish never gives up, but he knows how easy it is to stray. Luke knows too. ]

I don't know who I would be now without my friends. Someone who I wouldn't like. But I didn't think—I would make any friends here. I just wanted to get out. I still do, but... See? There's a caveat. [ Luke. ]