[ Adam nods like it really did help him. And it did. He doesn't trust himself enough to decide something like this. He already knows he's not innocent, that he has blood on his hands, but then he thinks about the way Gansey and Ronan would look at him if he ever told them what he did here to make it back to them. ]

Didn't say you wouldn't be good enough. [ A weak argument because he's listening. He closes his eyes and nods again. He wants to get back to make something of himself, but he also can't really imagine Ronan and Opal without him. Ronan definitely went crazy as soon as he disappeared, but being gone forever is something totally different.

He opens his eyes when Luke tries to use the same argument as he did last week. He realizes how stupid it is now. How can he pretend something won't happen when it obviously will? He kind of wants to apologize. ] Because they saw me differently back home too. Even my friends. They couldn't understand it. I thought I'd moved past it, but... [ He shakes his head. ] What do you mean we'll take care of it?